Allah wants to accept your repentance, and those who follow their passions/desires want you to digress into a great deviation.
Allah wants to lighten for you your difficulties; and mankind was created weak.
[Surat An-Nisaa 4:27-28]
“If you ever turn around and find that it’s been three months since you’ve faced Makkah.
And your shame is so overwhelming that it crashes over you like a tidal wave,
Do not run,
let it overcome you
and force you to your knees.
Your guilt is a mercy,
accept it, be grateful.”
“Your gold is your religion, your adornment is your moral attitude, and your wealth is your good manners .”
just be patient, Allah (SWT) has something better planned for you